Not too far along though, only 6 weeks when I miscarried. Usually people don't even know that they are pregnant at this point.
I will have to go in several time to see if my blood count goes down. If not, I will have to have a D and C. doesn't sound fun, so I hope they go down.
It really hasn't bothered me that this has happened. The Lord know what is best and this is all on his plan for me.
Monday, November 30, 2009
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Pregnant!
Today I took a pregnancy test and found out that I am pregnant!! But not until after TYSON told ME....
I took a test mid-morning. I waited a minute and saw one very faint line then a good solid line on the test. I assumed that I wasn't. Only one line was nice and noticeable I thought. So I threw it away along with the box. My day continued. No big deal.
Tyson came home from work and I was in the kitchen cooking dinner. He came back downstairs after changing out of his suit and asked me what was in the garbage. I told him nothing. He said, "what do you mean nothing...." And asked me what it said. I told him no, it was nothing and not a dig deal. He said, "um....are you sure?" Yes I told him. I'm sure. Then he told me I better go look at it again. He showed it to me and was reading the instructions.....(how hard could it be? pee on a stick and then read whether it has two line for yes pregnant or one for not.....) But it said in the instructions that one line light might not be as dark. So I guess I am pregnant! I don't even feel at all pregnant and it hasn't sunk in yet. I will take another test in a week. I guess i just don't believe that I am.
But maybe I am!!!!!!
I took a test mid-morning. I waited a minute and saw one very faint line then a good solid line on the test. I assumed that I wasn't. Only one line was nice and noticeable I thought. So I threw it away along with the box. My day continued. No big deal.
Tyson came home from work and I was in the kitchen cooking dinner. He came back downstairs after changing out of his suit and asked me what was in the garbage. I told him nothing. He said, "what do you mean nothing...." And asked me what it said. I told him no, it was nothing and not a dig deal. He said, "um....are you sure?" Yes I told him. I'm sure. Then he told me I better go look at it again. He showed it to me and was reading the instructions.....(how hard could it be? pee on a stick and then read whether it has two line for yes pregnant or one for not.....) But it said in the instructions that one line light might not be as dark. So I guess I am pregnant! I don't even feel at all pregnant and it hasn't sunk in yet. I will take another test in a week. I guess i just don't believe that I am.
But maybe I am!!!!!!
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Another Calling
Today I got another calling....ward camp director. I asked the second counselor if he was sure and he said yes....
really, me? Ward camp director?
Good thing that it is a stake camp and not everything is up to me. I will have lots of help. I am excited. I went this last camp as a "cabin mom" and it was awesome. The youth have such strong testimonies and it definitely made mine stronger. What a great experience this is going to be.
I am also serving as the 8yr old activity day leader and am apart of the enrichment committee. They told me that if at any point I get stressed that they would release me from one of the other callings, but want to make camp director a top priority. I think that it will all work out and will be just fine.
really, me? Ward camp director?
Good thing that it is a stake camp and not everything is up to me. I will have lots of help. I am excited. I went this last camp as a "cabin mom" and it was awesome. The youth have such strong testimonies and it definitely made mine stronger. What a great experience this is going to be.
I am also serving as the 8yr old activity day leader and am apart of the enrichment committee. They told me that if at any point I get stressed that they would release me from one of the other callings, but want to make camp director a top priority. I think that it will all work out and will be just fine.
Disappointed
Ty had promised me that today he would have the letter to the First Presidency done for the Temple cancellation. He didn't.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Starting Over
For the past 2 weeks I have felt that I need to keep up this journal. I have been blogging a lot, but not writing in my personal journal. Today is a new day. Today is a new start.
For the past 3 months I have really been wanting to go through the Temple and be sealed to My Love. Tyson is ready now, I think. We have talked a lot about it and our future family together. We want to be sealed together and we want to start our eternal family together.We have been talking a lot about a baby too. I think that we are both ready now. We have talked to the Bishop and now need to write a letter to the First Presidency asking for a Temple cancellation from Tyson's first marriage. I am really excited about this and can't wait until the day we are sealed together.
2 weeks ago in Sacrament meeting was the primary program. This years theme has been on An Eternal Family. The Spirit was so sweet in church and I knew that Tage felt it. Ever since that Sunday Tage has been saying that he is thankful for our family and that we can be together forever. I am so excited that really someday we actually will be!
So really that it what has been on my mind lately....Temple.....Family.....Love
For the past 3 months I have really been wanting to go through the Temple and be sealed to My Love. Tyson is ready now, I think. We have talked a lot about it and our future family together. We want to be sealed together and we want to start our eternal family together.We have been talking a lot about a baby too. I think that we are both ready now. We have talked to the Bishop and now need to write a letter to the First Presidency asking for a Temple cancellation from Tyson's first marriage. I am really excited about this and can't wait until the day we are sealed together.
2 weeks ago in Sacrament meeting was the primary program. This years theme has been on An Eternal Family. The Spirit was so sweet in church and I knew that Tage felt it. Ever since that Sunday Tage has been saying that he is thankful for our family and that we can be together forever. I am so excited that really someday we actually will be!
So really that it what has been on my mind lately....Temple.....Family.....Love
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Are you sure?
This past week I have felt that I was going to be released from Sunbeams, or at least some changes were going to happen dealing with my calling. I hated the thought and didn't want to pray about it or think about it. Today in Sharing Time Bro. King (a member of the Bishobric) pulled me out just for a moment and said that I was going to be released and asked if I would be willing to accept a new calling. Team leader for the 8 year old activity girls. I of course said yes. Emotional, but yes. Next Sunday will be my last one in Primary and my last Sunday teaching my cute Sunbeams. I returned to sit with my class and started to get teary eyed. Then as another teacher handed me my roll said that her and her husband would be taking my class. I lost it. Right there in the middle of singing time. I cried enough that the 2nd councelor in the primary presidency came over and asked if I was ok. I stuggled through the rest of Sharing Time trying to control myself. Realizing that I will no longer be among these sweet Spirits and listen to their simple testimonies and hear of the beautiful primary songs that I love so much.
Silly as it seems I thought of my previous week. No coloring. Did I cross the line? Was that uncalled for? Did I do something wrong? When I wasn't prepared to do sharing time a few weeks back, and I jokingly said that 'I'm fired' to the Primary President that she thought I was serious?Where they upset? I know that I have been in Sunbeams for almost 2 years. Bro. King said that this would give me a chance to go to Sunday School and Relief Society and that he knew I had been in Primary for a long time. But I honestly I don't want to leave. I love being in Primary. Yes, in the past 2 years I have thought that I should not be in Sunbeams and that I should be in Relief Society, but when it came right down to it, I knew that I was where I was suppose to be. I hope that I will take that thought with me as I go be an Activity Day leader. The Lord knows what's best. And I know that the men in the Bishopbric are inspired men and have felt like this is where I am suppose to be. I just pray that I will be comforted.
Silly as it seems I thought of my previous week. No coloring. Did I cross the line? Was that uncalled for? Did I do something wrong? When I wasn't prepared to do sharing time a few weeks back, and I jokingly said that 'I'm fired' to the Primary President that she thought I was serious?Where they upset? I know that I have been in Sunbeams for almost 2 years. Bro. King said that this would give me a chance to go to Sunday School and Relief Society and that he knew I had been in Primary for a long time. But I honestly I don't want to leave. I love being in Primary. Yes, in the past 2 years I have thought that I should not be in Sunbeams and that I should be in Relief Society, but when it came right down to it, I knew that I was where I was suppose to be. I hope that I will take that thought with me as I go be an Activity Day leader. The Lord knows what's best. And I know that the men in the Bishopbric are inspired men and have felt like this is where I am suppose to be. I just pray that I will be comforted.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
No coloring
So today I had 6 girls show up. I have a total of 10 kids, only 2 boys, the rest girls. Let me just say that they where quite the handful in class. Sharing time they were gems. We even got the reverent bear! (A bear that sits in front of the room and gets sent to the class that is the most reverent in sharing time so they could have it in their classroom.) I had to repeately tell them to sit in their chair, put their dress down, put their shoes on, stop dancing around and fold their arms and be reverent. I started to get a little upset. At one point I even stopped in mid sentence and folded my arms and said that I would just wait until they are ready and folding their arms. After just a minute or two (that felt like forever) they listened and payed attention for a few minutes until one would do something then the rest would follow. I had the reverent bear sitting in front of the class and had to keep reminding them that the reverent bear is watching and is not happy that they are not being reverent. I then started threatening them with no coloring time. They listened again for a few minutes then were back to their own worlds. At the end of class when they asked if it was coloring time I said no. I told them that they had not been respectful and were not reverent and didn't deserve coloring time. Top it off I had them each give the reverent bear a hug and say their sorry for not being reverent. Boy what a mean teacher I am! When the parents came to get their child I handed the coloring page that I had planned on using and gave it to the child and said that if they want to color next week they better be reverent. (I said it in front of the parent in hopes that they would have a little chat about how to act in class.) I guess we will see next week. I felt like it was a bit harsh to take away coloring time, but hopefully they will learn to listen and obey and be reverent.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Sharing Time
Today was a normal Sunday, so I thought. Having church at 8:30am seemed a bit too early to me today. I was a little late waking up since I just got back from a girls trip at 1am. Not a good start I guess, but didn't think much of it. We were a tad late to church, but we made it as the opening prayer was being said.
I had prepared my lesson earlier in the week since I knew I wouldn't have much time Sunday morning. Normal Sunday I thought until I walk into sharing time and one of the primary counselors asked if I was doing sharing time today. WHAT? You should have seen my face. I said no, and I said that I didn't know I was suppose to do it today. I didn't get a note in my roll a few weeks in advance like I had before telling me or a reminder note in the roll the previous week. Turns out I didn't even fill out my roll the week prior, but she said that they weren't doing the notes anymore and they were just going to call to ask. Turns out she forgot to call me. Not my fault, but I still ended up winging sharing time. When I have done sharing time in the past, I stress about it and get all nervous. I guess it was a good thing I was just thrown into it so I wouldn't have time to stress. The topic was. "I lived in Heaven before I came to earth" or something along those lines. Good thing my sunbeam lesson for today was pretty much the same thing! I just did my lesson. It turned out not to be long enough and I was not good at fudging any longer, so we sang a couple more songs. Then it was off to class time for me to do my lesson again. The kids enjoyed it.
This it pretty much what I did:
*Got a doll and placed it on a chair. Asked everyone to stand up, twirl around, touch head, toes, etc. and asked why the doll wasn't listening to me and obeying. (the doll is pretend)
*Where did the doll come from? (store)
*Where did we come from? (Heaven)
I had a long piece of string on the floor (representing Heavenly Fathers Plan) and had someone come up and walk along the line asking everyone to say things that are following Heavenly Fathers Plan go to church, read scripture, prayer, FHE, be baptized, take sacrament....) then I would push the child off the line and say something like.....you didn't say your prayers, you skipped church. They weren't following the plan when they don't do good things.
Overall it worked. the kids seemed to participate well and listened. Hope they got something out of it.
I had prepared my lesson earlier in the week since I knew I wouldn't have much time Sunday morning. Normal Sunday I thought until I walk into sharing time and one of the primary counselors asked if I was doing sharing time today. WHAT? You should have seen my face. I said no, and I said that I didn't know I was suppose to do it today. I didn't get a note in my roll a few weeks in advance like I had before telling me or a reminder note in the roll the previous week. Turns out I didn't even fill out my roll the week prior, but she said that they weren't doing the notes anymore and they were just going to call to ask. Turns out she forgot to call me. Not my fault, but I still ended up winging sharing time. When I have done sharing time in the past, I stress about it and get all nervous. I guess it was a good thing I was just thrown into it so I wouldn't have time to stress. The topic was. "I lived in Heaven before I came to earth" or something along those lines. Good thing my sunbeam lesson for today was pretty much the same thing! I just did my lesson. It turned out not to be long enough and I was not good at fudging any longer, so we sang a couple more songs. Then it was off to class time for me to do my lesson again. The kids enjoyed it.
This it pretty much what I did:
*Got a doll and placed it on a chair. Asked everyone to stand up, twirl around, touch head, toes, etc. and asked why the doll wasn't listening to me and obeying. (the doll is pretend)
*Where did the doll come from? (store)
*Where did we come from? (Heaven)
I had a long piece of string on the floor (representing Heavenly Fathers Plan) and had someone come up and walk along the line asking everyone to say things that are following Heavenly Fathers Plan go to church, read scripture, prayer, FHE, be baptized, take sacrament....) then I would push the child off the line and say something like.....you didn't say your prayers, you skipped church. They weren't following the plan when they don't do good things.
Overall it worked. the kids seemed to participate well and listened. Hope they got something out of it.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Sunbeams
I teach the cute sunbeam class in primary. Since its a new year...I got new kids! Sunbeams are 3yrs old turning 4 this year. Coming from nursery is a big deal. They feel all grown up going to primary but still need that little kid attention and attitude.
It will be 2 years in March/April that I have been in sunbeams, you think I would be a pro right...NOT! Each week is different and each child is different. I really enjoy it.
Tyson joined me today!!! He has come in once or twice and subbed for me once. (He said he would never do that again, and he hasn't) He was such a help to me today.
Today's lesson was "Heavenly Father has a body." We did lots of action songs and Tyson came up with the coloring/activity idea of tracing their hand, bringing a scale to weigh them and a measuring tape to see how tall they are. Great idea, and the kids love it!
The couple times Ty has come in to 'help' me he just sits there. It was really great to have him in both sharing time and class time interacting with the kids and helping out! I hope that he continues to come. There are times that I really could feel the Spirit in primary. It is the simplest things about the gospel that are so essential. I also LOVE the music! Right now my favorite 2 songs the kids sing are: I love to see the temple, and If the Savior stood beside me.
It will be 2 years in March/April that I have been in sunbeams, you think I would be a pro right...NOT! Each week is different and each child is different. I really enjoy it.
Tyson joined me today!!! He has come in once or twice and subbed for me once. (He said he would never do that again, and he hasn't) He was such a help to me today.
Today's lesson was "Heavenly Father has a body." We did lots of action songs and Tyson came up with the coloring/activity idea of tracing their hand, bringing a scale to weigh them and a measuring tape to see how tall they are. Great idea, and the kids love it!
The couple times Ty has come in to 'help' me he just sits there. It was really great to have him in both sharing time and class time interacting with the kids and helping out! I hope that he continues to come. There are times that I really could feel the Spirit in primary. It is the simplest things about the gospel that are so essential. I also LOVE the music! Right now my favorite 2 songs the kids sing are: I love to see the temple, and If the Savior stood beside me.
Friday, January 9, 2009
Mesa Temple
I just got home from the Mesa Temple. I went to do baptisms while my friends Trina and Karolyn did inititories. I had such a peaceful and calming experience today. After doing confirmations and baptisms I got back dressed and ready and had still some time to wait until my friends were done. I decided to just sit in the baptistery chapel and think. I picked up a hymn book and listened to the music and tried to think of the hymn and find it fast enough and followed along thinking about the words. I LOVE what music could do.I LOVE how it brings the Spirit in so quickly. It completely calmed me and uplifted me and encouraged me. A couple songs that stood out were "Where can I turn for peace" and "Lead kindly light." I wanted to be in that room forever. I loved the feeling. I loved having the Spirit with me so strong at that moment. I Love my Heavenly Father and KNOW that he is my older brother. He is there to lead me home to Him.
Inspired?
Would I say I have been insipred? I don't know. But this morning at about 2:30 in the morning I woke up and could not go back to sleep. I have had a lot on my mind and pondering about a lot of thing in life. What am I doing? Am I suppose to be doing the things I am right now? Marrigae? Family? So many things! I saw 4:00am roll by....and think I fell asleep for about an hour but woke up about 5:30am when Tys alarm went off. Lovely. Not alot of sleep.
I had the thought running through my mind about needing to have a journal, a place to write my spiritual feelings, a place to vent, a place to write my everyday personal happenings. Right down to what I was to title my journal.....so here I am. Following my thoughts that have kept me up all night.
I had the thought running through my mind about needing to have a journal, a place to write my spiritual feelings, a place to vent, a place to write my everyday personal happenings. Right down to what I was to title my journal.....so here I am. Following my thoughts that have kept me up all night.
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